you'll never know

you'll never know that I found out about you lying from your dad
and he didn't know you were lying either
and i think both him and me figured it out at the same time
and you'll never know that i think you invited me out of pitty
but that i didn't care
and you'll never know that the pitty invite made my week
possibly month
and you'll never know that i know how sad that is
but didn't care
and you'll never know that i wrote for an hour with a blazing headache
and tears streaming down my face
my nose so clogged tissues were as useless as an
nalgene full of snad in the desert
and you'll never know what you meant to me
and you'll never know I would have drank
that nalgene if it could have brought you back
to what you were
and who we were
and what that meant
was that i was too sad
to lonley and too weak to know
that you'll never know
and that thats all that mattered