in those moments

I seeked through silent hours
the truth that would not show its face
from behind closed doors it lay dorment
only peaking out once in a while

and at those moments my heart race and
blood pounded
and i was silent
though it seemed as everything was louder
i worried you could hear my thoughts

and at those moments i felt i could almost
open that door
that truth lay behind
and at the moments i felt i knew it finally
and it was at those moments
i most wanted to shut the truth in the door

for it was following those moments
that i wanted to cry
and it was following those moments
that i felt most alive
and it was following those moments..
that it seemed that if only i could
just
let
truth out
i
could
breathe
easy
again