ughhhhhhhhh

there are times when i just feel like a heavy heart
and there no exhale deep enough to
get it off my cheast
i feel like i just want to rip something apart
but instead i yell and scream and cry
because i don't know what ails me
no i don't know why

i wonder if my heart is dark
and i wonder if i'm the only one
who feels like theres always something wrong
i smile and i laugh but then it all falls apart
for no reason i have no clue
but i'm left looking like the darkest shade of blue

i have no explination for these thoughts
no reason i scream at you
it doesn't make me feel any better
for hurting you
so i'll guess that its just one more time
those exhales wont seem deep enough
to let it all go
those tears won't come fast enough
for anyone one to know